I don’t feel as though I can carry on, It’s not even the fact of everything going on, I’ve been diagnosed with 4 things and they really do get to my head like I know that it’s just my mental issues and everything but it makes me feel like shit because I’m not there in the head either, everything going on is just making my head worse and I really need to get away, I’ve been trying to stay strong since I was twelve and I’m nearly 17 I am really trying and trying to see the positive side in life but it’s kinda hard to be okay when there’s no one there to support you, not even cahms who are meant to help young people with mental health problems will help me despite the fact they tried sending me to a mental hospital, I just think the world would be a happier place without me and at least I wouldn’t have to suffer anymore, I’m going to see how this week goes and if it goes shit then I’m gone, I’m sorry, thankyou for the help though it’s nice to know someone cares
Fuck it. Everyone fucking hates me. I have no fucking friends. I am fucking insane, I fucking hate myself and I want to die. I feel like fucking shit constantly anyway and yet there seems to be more fucking shit going on in my life. Thought I had some good mates after him breaking up with me but fucking no. I don’t. I don’t have any fucking friends and that’s just pushing me over the edge. After I’m fucking done with today that’s it I’m just going. FUCK IT ALL I HATE MYSELF AND I WANT TO FUCKING DIE. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT A GOD DAMN RELATIONSHIP AND LOSING WEIGHT AND BEING BEAUTIFUL FOR GODS SAKE GO OUTSIDE AND ROB A STORE AND FEEL ALIVE AS YOU RUN AWAY FROM SECURITY